Currently Listening IV By Godsmack see related

Bye

Bye.

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Ever feel......

Every feel like you have no purpose in this world. That you're just here so people can hurt you, pay little games with your head and use and twist you in every possible way?

Life is so dull at the moment. I have a wedding to go to in two weeks. James's brother is finally getting married. Its going to be so savage. Funnels everywhere! lol I love that family.

Victoria Frances. I love her art work. This is one of my favourites. Absolutely gorgeous.

Alice, you remember "Pat the Kitty" back in 4th form? I was talking to him the other day, a conversation. I was so worried he would recognise me or something lol. Its funny looking back at how immature little girls we were.

I am so fucking bored its not funny. There is absolutley nothing to do in this house. I might go for a bike ride later.

Blessed Be &hearts;

Quick One

I just spilt coffee all over the carpet and coffee table. Woops.

Watched the movie The Covenent on friday night while James was out the beach having a guys night (he got wabsed). It was alright. Good music. Nice fight scene. Cute guys. Other than that......well, its alright.

So Amy is gone. She's off in the big world now and I'm stuck her, nowhere.

I'm worried about Callum. He hasn't text me all weekend and I'm worried he's going to do something stupid. I know he wouldn't but I know how he must be feeling so yeah. James doesn't want to hear anything about it which is understandable since Callum is my ex.

I got my first tattoo! "Blessed Be" on my wrist. Noone seems to believe me when I say it didn't hurt. It felt really cool. I can't wait to get another one. Post a picture tomorrow when I find some batteries for the camera.

I need some sleep and I miss James.

Love <3

Talk about family dramas. I thought my aunt was going to get into a punch up. Here's my cousins 14year old daughter being verbally abused by her father and stepmother in public and my 60 year old aunt stand up for her and almost ends up swinging her fist into the stepmothers face. I don't blame her for wanting to. Lillian (cousins daughter) is standing there crying and shaking while her family is fighting and all I wanted to do was walk up to the fucking asshole and punch him in the fucking eye even if he is three times my size. Fucking Cunt! He's such a bloody hypocrite. I've never met anyone as arrogant as him. Wouldn't you just love to be part of my family?

Besides that I've spent a lot of money today. Two new necklaces, a goblet and new top.....

Why does life have to be so stressful? Everything is falling apart in my family and my friends are falling apart aswell. I always have to be there for people and I'm tired of being just a shoulder to cry on. My friends parents are so closeminded that I have to help her keep secrets from them and her sister. Its so hard. My goddess, if they treat her any different because of who she is inside I will scream. I love her but she needs to realise that keeping secrets hurts people. I know that more than anyone. I'm sorry if this makes you angry or upset chickie but its the truth and you know it.

I hate being a bitch but I'm my mothers daughter so it can't be helped.

Where do I start? I honestly wouldn't have a clue. Everything is so over the top at the moment. I'm trying to help two of my closest friends and all they are doing is tearing me down. My mum can see it, James can see, why can't they? I mean I see one of them nearly everyday and the other, well I've seen him once in the last year. I seriously don't know what to do.

More tomorrow.

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